its seems as if I haven’t spoken a word on here in more than four months.
completely and totally shocked on how far i let myself get behind on this.
im poor and cant afford an internet service in my apt so when anywhere Wifi is available im immediately back to it!
its almost Christmas 2k12, and I still can’t fathom how fast this year has gone by.
I’ve had the best opportunities this year and can not wait to see where 2013 leads me.
I can proudly say I’m happy with myself and the person im becoming after all that has been thrown on my plate within the past year…and can proudly admit im finally coming out and getting help for the eating disorder that i’ve battled with for the past 5+ years.
regardless of my admittance of it, I refuse any type of sympathy or empathy for it because there is no reason for anyone to be sorry other than myself… theres a lot more to people then meets the eye and I can definitely say that i’ve learned more over the past 4 months then I have in my entire existence. without the support of my mother and boy friend I wouldn’t be where I am now.
to anyone with any type of disorder or addiction, speak up about it. it hurts and may seem embarrassing, but in the end it really is worth it. I can truthfully say everyone I know that has gotten clean and rid their addiction throughout this year are happy and all around beautiful. it inspired me to do so… Im not saying I know everything about addiction, but I am saying one simple word can change your life.
im fucking happy, and for me.. that says a lot.
2013, bring it the fuck on.